Sunday, November 10, 2013

When was the last time you felt really, truly blissful?

When was the last time you felt really, truly blissful?
   Well, let's first define blissful. Blissful is an adjective meaning extremely happy; full of joy. Blissful.
    The word itself is beautiful. It is so peaceful and it makes me feel happy. 
The last time I felt extremely happy, was when I was in high school. I didn't realize it at the time, of course but those days were some of the best days of my life. I would hear from the older and wiser adults all the time "enjoy these days while you can", "these are the easiest days of your life". 
*Pauses* & *Reflects for a moment*
       I would laugh and go on like, "yeah Okay". Boy were they right. I don't remember anything being simple, planned out or set in stone (so to speak) for me once I walked across that stage last year. Although my life was a lot different from the average seventeen year old. I was graduating, but I was graduating as a mother. I became pregnant with my first child at age sixteen and had him eight months before I was set to graduate high school. So I was up for a huge challenge anyway.
     Before that though, I can remember worrying about all the wrong things and stressing over all the little things. I remember late night phone calls with guys that I just knew I was in love with and would someday marry. I remember Friday night football games, playoff basketball games, competing in track and field, drama clubs, art clubs, model troupe etc. I remember loads of homework that I promised the teacher had it out for me and I would rather die than complete all of it. I remember girl drama, heart breaks, wanting to fit in, striving to stand out. I staying out all weekend with my bffs, date nights with my bf and of course the parties!
    These were the days that I felt truly blissful. Not realizing that all of these moments were momentary and I would not have the chance to re-live or go back to anything. I was young, free, happy and didn't really have a care in the world, as much as I thought I did. 
    I've learned however that every second in life gets shorter and time only moves forward. I will forever keep all the memories with me and I will always remember to just LIVE, no matter the circumstance.

“You only live once, but if you do it right, once is enough.”
― Mae West